look in the portrait today?
she shudders and pulls
she said (bitterly/violently/desperately)
she said i am damned to hell and back
she said it comes out in the books like blood
from a knife; disconnected, but members
of the same party, all the same.
tonight or last night or yesterday?
three o’clock found me at the edge of the world,
in winter, with trees like old dark moss
under the sky.
seven o’clock found me at a murder,
the cutting thing in my hand, and then
the sky was drooling
pink sleeting snow.
she said: NO
i did not look at the portrait
i do not need to
it comes out in nature and the library. it comes out all the same,
but even so;